FUCK IT

DUDE I'M STILL FUCKEN SITTING HERE DOING MY ESSAY! N I HAVE TO GET READY IN 2 HOURS. BLAH!

UNCLE SENT ME THIS. PLEASE READ.

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE


(1)Fine:This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right
and you need to shut up.
(2)Five Minutes:If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five
minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes
to watch the game before helping around the house.
(3)Nothing:This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you
should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in
fine.
(4)Go Ahead:This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!
(5)Loud Sigh:This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often
misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and
wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you
about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)
(6)That's Okay:This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can
make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before
deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
(7)Thanks:A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say
you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she
says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at
all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . that will bring on a 'whatever').
(8)Whatever:Is a woman's way of sayingF--YOU!
(9)Don't worry about it, I got it:Another dangerous statement, meaning this
is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now
doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?'
For the woman's response refer to # 3.



* Send this to the men you know, to warn them about arguments they can avoid
if they remember the terminology.

* Send this to all the women you know to give them a good laugh, cause they
know it's true!

DOT DOT DOT.

SOMETIMES WE JUST WANNNA PROTECT OUR FRIENDS BUT YET U GET URSELF IN A FUCKED UP SITUATION. BUT U KNO WHAT, IN THIS WORLD WE SHOULDNT CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE BUT URSELF.- ANN KAO

TRUTH HURTS BUT WE JUST GOTTA LEARN FROM IT. LISTEN TO YOUR FRIENDS BECAUSE WE COULD SEE THINGS YOU DONT SEE ABOUT YOURSELF -- ANN&ANDREW

LISTEN TO YOUR HEART IF YOU BELIEVE YOU LOVE HIM/HER. ASK YOURSELF IF YOU WANNA BE WITH THEM. IF YOU JUST WANNA PLAY AROUND, LET IT GO. BUT IF U WANNA BE SERIOUS. TELL THEM. CAUSE THEY WOULD NEVER KNOW HOW YOU TRULY FEELS IF YOU DONT EVER START SPEAKING FROM YOUR HEART. -- ANN KAO

No one is better than anyone else in this world. Don't think that you are smarter than everyone else. We all go through our life very differently. If you have problems, come to us. No point in holding inside until you can't take it anymore. Just share everything because thats how we can care for everyone.-- ANDREW CHIENG

I MIGHT NOT BE THE BEST OF A FRIEND BUT I WOULD TRY TO. I MIGHT MAKE BIG MISTAKES BUT I WOULD TRY NOT TO AGAIN. BUT SOMETIMES YOU JUST GOTTA SEE THE BIGGER PICTURE WHY WE WOULD EVEN MAKE IT. THERE IS ALWAYS A STORY BEHIND THE REASON WHY. WE JUST GOTTA SEE IT IN A DIFFERENT POINT OF VIEW-- ANN KAO


i really wish things could go back the same. but u kno what it wouldnt. NEVER EVER. cause in my heart u would no longer be someone i trust. and iono about in the future but as of right now u aint someone imma run to. sorry for this but i really cant seem to let myself to forgive and forget. maybe i will later on the week but at this moment i cant. i cant seem to understand anyone anymore. i feel liek my closest friend had pick a guy over me. i feel like it has no longer in my life. i feel like the only reason i could keep it together is going home together. but i dont want just that. =\ yeah i might not go out cause i hate the cold but i feel like beside that we dont talk ever. we dont run to each other when we have problems. i feel like when i go to u. its all negative attitude. all the time now. =\

WHAT CAN I DO?

i havent update whats happening for a while now. cause there wasnt much happening thats why. didnt do shit but sumthing funny happen yesterday. i was talking to THE GUY's GIRLFRIEND. i didnt even kno he got a fucken girlfriend. but its okay. i knew my feelings for him was going away but after yesterday i realize that it was gone. cause i was actually laughing at the situation n actually be able to talk to her like a friend. i didnt kno whats ur intention of telling me so much about herself but i had nothin to lie to her about. me n him is just friends n will always be good friends. although i kno he has been lying to me but its okay. maybe there is why he lying to me. who knos. anyways i dont kno if i should confront him or when to confront him. =\ so weird. anyways i shouldnt even b trippin cause u kno why not like he ever gonna go home. n in his heart i'm just a nobody. lol if he wanna be with her. i think he should. its the better for their family. anyways imma stop here. =D

what a day. XD

imma make this short as possible cause i dont feel like typing but yet i wanna tell everyone. i've been doing good lately i guess, yet as well bad i guess too. iono some stuff make me sad n some stuff makes me happy so iono how it ish n shit like that. anyways today i went to school form 9am - 8pm. KRAZY HUH I KNO. saw kevin on my 2 hr break. i was tokboxing at school with vanessa and dj n SIMON. cant forget him. =] anyways after that went to class n went home. i told dj last time that i would look for all my shoes n i found most of them. but not ALL! kinda upset. iono what happen to it. but yeah i found 45 pairs of shoes. n here is the picture. isnt it krazy. of course its include crocs. lOL i have a lot. but about 20 pairs. anyways yeah thats pretty much it. right now tokboxing n i willl talk about how i'm feeling lately later on. cause i just wanna show off my shoes. =D

BROKEN

i'm surprised this is where i really put my feelings to. where i write what have been bugging me. anyways i heard sumthing i didnt really want to believe but i kno its true. in my heart i'm really broken. iono how to accept it and i really dont kno what i could make me feel better. =[ iono when i could stop feeling this way. i just want to kno the truth from that person but at a same time iono how i would take it. even if i hear it from that person. i might even be more heart broken cause they could always lie to me. =\ i really dont kno what i could do anyways. please save me god. i really dont know how i really feel. i really dont kno what to do. although the problem aint my problem but in my heart i feel like it is. just knowing someone i care so much about is like that. maybe there is a story behind. maybe im just taking it too much. even tho i was crying so much and start joking around. its because i dont want them to worry anymore. i dont wanna keep crying and make them feel bad for telling me but u kno what. imma be stronger. i will try to be stronger. with this problem it made me realize how cruel i am. how fucked up i am. how dirty i am. i really regret what i have done. but what can i do. nothin. cause its gone now. at this moment i just need to accept what i have done wrong and just dont do it again. and if i am doing it again. i am ready. i just wish that one day i could really forgive myself but yeah right. i wont ever ever forgive myself but i wish i could. *sigh* right now i just hope and wish that person could let me care about them. let me in and let me be someone they could run too. *sigh* i just wish. really wish. you kno guys. my previous blog about the guy i like but i aint sure i like him. i feel like i aint sure if i do or not but i kno that i want to get closer to him. i really wanna be someone special to him. but i wonder if i have the ability to do it. i wonder if he would let me get closer. i wonder right now if one day i would love him and maybe he would love me too. although its kinda impossible now but hay who knos. lol but maybe one day i would start walking backward n leave instead but that would be a day i kno how he truely feels for me. lately a lot of shit been coming at me. i actually told how i was feeling to people that had known me for so long but yet i dont tell them. i guess to the situation i just wish they would understand how i feel. i just wanna tell
VANESSA YEE. thank you. DJ.I LOVE YOU A LONG TIME.
writing this blog keep making me cry. sucks. lol i've been crying a lot lately. from the day DJMIKE LEFT til today i am styll crying. what a WEEK!.

GOODBYE GUYS.

MY WONDERFUL WEEKEND.

lets start off saturday. i went to serramonte with andrew and went shopping. he came to pick me up around 11:30AM. and we finished around 12:30 PM. but u kno wat i felt like it was like 2-3 hours shopping but it was only 1 HR! it was KRAZY. i guess its because MIKE&DJ IS COMING DOWN!!!!! so i got super excited that my day went super slow. but andrew drop me off home and i went to watch series and talk to DJ on the phone asking whats up n entertain him a little. XD anyways time flew by n its around 7 ish. i decided to go to VANESSA's house to wait for DJ&MIKE to get here. around 9ish they were in san francisco. (THEY WERE LOST) anyways but yeah we tried to find some motels and shit so they could sleep at n shit. and we did at judah. danng so far. but yet so close. lol. anyways yeah we unpack n shit chilled in front of vanny;s house. we chilled there to find out wat to eat n we ended up at denny;s. we ate we talk and MIKE WAS SITTING NEXT TO ME. he makes me really nervous. i swear cause he is my husband u kno. lol but yeah he was so fucken funny. hes trying to kill me with his jokes i swear. anyways after denny;s we head back to vanny's house and we sat in front of it for a while n mike was tired so he want to go back n sleep. dj went bowling with the guys. and i decided to go home cause i kno they aint gonna go home early enough for me not to get in trouble. LOL so i decided to go home too. but at a same time i wish i got in trouble n spent time with DJ. but at a same time i didnt kno any1 there really. LOL alrite so thats the saturday. =D

so sunday. i woke up around 7:30AM. i'm good huh. ii kno. =D anyways i woke up n called vanny but she was sleeping. SLEEPYHEAD! i swear. lol but i end up getting ready to do my wake up pop uup to dj and mike. lol so i went to get ready right. i didnt finish til like around 8:30 is so they could keep sleeping in. anyways i walk all the way to their motel which is judah n 47th. lol. good hiuh i kno n i got there around 9:30. which i walked really slow so they could sleep in a little. by the time i got there VANNY CALLED n she said she just woke up n shes gonna get ready to shower. and i told her to call dj to open the door. n mike end up opening the door. he was scratching his BALLS. thats the first thing i noticed. LOL. anyways they were sleeping n i walked in n said time to WAKE UP! but u kno they aint gonna wake up and i end up joining them sleeping. lol. i was on mike;s bed. OMGOSH I WAS SLEEPING WITH MY HUSBAND! lol but i end up poppin beds talking to DJ n MIKE. lol anyways yeah it was pretty funny. =D anyways we left the motel and went to vanny;s house and vanny drove. WOW. lol. we went to eat pho at irving. and it was DJ & MIKE first time eating PHO! LOL it was pretty funny. we ate with VINCE, MIKE,ED,SIMON DJ,MIKE,VAN, obviously i was there too. LOL but yeah we ate pho than we went to DAY INN where they checked in. =D DAH DAH DAH DAH DAH. walked a little and after that we fucken went to pick some people up and went to japantown. lol KRAZY. we took stickypic. HEHE. KRAZY! lol but yeah it was pretty kool. SERIOUSLY. only me van dj n mike took it. its okay tho. i like it. it was fun. =D but yeah. after japantown drop simon home. I KNO WHERE HE LIVES NOW!!! lol anyways but yeah drop him off n went to ED's HOUSE. we dat there the whole fucken night. wasnt bad. everyone really friendly. =D and yeah they were playing games. we order pizza. ate pizza and i start crying cause i was starting to realize DJ N MIKE IS GONNA LEAVE!!! i'm so fucken sad. i keep crying n stop when i look at mike. thanlook at DJ again n i start crying. than mike i stop. it was pretty funny that it keep happening. n i finally stop cause i wasnt thinking about it until we about to leave. i was crying my ass off. n when we finally saying goodbye. i was crying like i havent cried for so long. i was so sad. seriously really sad. i really dont wish they leave. i wish i could stay with them longer. i dont even give a shit i have school 2m. so i could last just another min. and another min. i just wish to be with them until they have to leave but i cant. i really miss them. right now i aint crying anymore but i was telling george amy eric yong about dj n mike. i couldnt stop crying. i wish i could see them right now. iono how i feel that way but i feel like i have such a strong connection with them.. they were like my other half of my heart. seriously. i think my life been so happy ever sincei met them. really. i just wish i could see them forreal. cause i miss them so much. like SO MUCH. =[ (DJ IF UR READING THIS I KNO UR AT SAN DEIGO ALREADY!! =[ I MISS U SO MUCH. I REALLY DO MISS U! I REALLY DO. AND MIKE I WISH WE HAD TIME TOGETHER ALONE. U KNO I REALLY WANT THAT. BUT ITS OKAY. I THINK I HAD A LOT THAN I ACTUALLY EXPECTED. BUT THANK YOU. YOU GUYS REALLY MADE MY WEEKEND SO FUN AND HAPPY AND SO EXCITED. THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU A LONG TIME<3>