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HI GUYS. how u guys doing? i've been pretty emo lately cause there is this one guy. iono if i should say who it ish but i'm pretty sure a lot of people know who it ish. anyways hes a very very very kool guy. hes funny and really adorable. i wish i could actually get to kno him even better. but i feel like if i keep talking to him it would end up in a wrong place n i dont think i'm ready for that. iono how he feels for me cause i feel like what i felt before is not the same right now. i guess he just think i aint the right gurl i guess. anyways but lately i felt like without him my life feel so incomplete. like there in a bug inside of me running around every where n it feels so uncomfortable if u guys kno wat i mean. but yesterday i was in pain feeling like hes leaving me. but now today i'm fine. i kinda talk to him n its like wahatever i guess i'm feeling better n learn to let go. but i still do care about him a lot. cause hes such a good guy.

I CANT WAIT TIL I SEE DJ N MIKE! YEAHH SUNDAY!!!

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ANYWAYS IT ISH 5 almost 6am. i finish taking my shower n i'm tired ass fuck cause i only go like 2 hrs of sleep i think imma ko til like 7 when nora gets here. LOL anyways, SCHOOL HAD BEEN HELL NOW. hw is getting at me now. so tired. the only thing i cant wait right now is to see dj n mike this weekend. LOL i cant wait. =D shit, XD anyways imma go to sleep a little n get up n go to school =D

my feelings.

NO HE AINT THE GUY BUT ISNT HE SO CUTE! LOL





lately i've been really emo. iono why i'm like this but i just dont kno how to control it. i really dont kno how. when i start to have a thing for someone i feel like i shouldnt be liking them and its wrong to like them and i pull myself away from them. i would act hella shady to them but at a same time i try not too cause i'm being really selfish fucking up a frennship just because of some little feelings. right? but yeah i really dont know whats wrong with me. =\ feel so stupid sometimes. i actually dont even know why i feel this way. i dont even know what kind of feeling this ish. i just kno that that guy became someone special to me. just telling u guys its not deep shit or anything. really its not. but he would be someone i care about and i hope to stay the way we are right now cause its so fun and i'm happy. =] i do miss him tho. but i wouldnt go to him like that to the point he knos i miss him. even tho i say i miss him i kno i would say it as a joke but really its not. lol i guess this is how i let them think i dont feel that way for them. so it wont be all weird and shit. lol. i think hes such a sweet heart but a player. O.o haha. but iono why i dig them even more. weird huh? getting myself into sum bullshit relationship problems. lol. anyways in my heart right now i feel super confuse. i guess u could say he aint the only guy i'm kinda interested i guess. but the other guys has nothin to compare to him. other guy are people i talk to a lot but at a same time i get upset when i hear them telling me who they like but at a same time i dont give a shit. i guess i;m just an attention whore. i jsut want their attention. LOL but hay who knos. i dont even know how i even feel right now. =\ i'm saying so much but thats how i feel u kno but at a same time i kinda feel like thats not how i feel n i get so confuse. do i like anyone? i feel like i do but is it just that i'm so happy i'm just taking it the wrong way? i really dont know. i'm so clueless right now. seriously. i really dont kno. *sigh* i've been talking to people like amy and nora. nora said focus in school. i am. i'm trying to do good in class right now but at a same time my heart would wonder around u kno. n amy knos what i'm talking about like how i feel i guess but yeah i dont even kno. i really really really dont kno whats going on. so clueless and confuse. seriously. but i will try to get my feelings straight soon i hope.

alrite today what did i do? i woke up around 1 ish. went on tokbox to see whos on. saw amy and eric. talk a little they left. watch some chinese drama. n later on. i went back on tokbox but they didnt even tell me they were on tobox. got kinda upset. but whatever. its all good. than back to my series n took a shower n tokbox until i leave for family dinner. after family dinner i went back home and tokbox some more. text amy what they gonna do n she just told me andrew gonna come pick me up without ASKING ME IF I WANNA GO OR NOT. but yeah i didnt kno if i should go or not when its around 11 sumthing already. n they dont even know when andrew was going to pick me up. so until andrew called me i was deciding if i should go. cause i'm mad broke. from dinner from yesterday. anyways yeah. later on andrew called me if i wanna go bowling. n its about money obviously i'm gonna say no. so i didnt go. n stayed home n tokbox. lol. but i was so fucken bored at home. i wish i went out that didnt have to do with money. moneyless is good. lol anyways its okay tho. at least i didnt spend any money. =D but yeah thats pretty much it. i'm still in tokbox. lol like always. =D but yeah today is DJ's birthday.

TO DJ.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY U FUCKEN BITCH ASS MOTHER FUCKER.
you kno i love you very much. you've been a really good frenn. ever since i met u. thank you very much. i get to share my deepest secret and also not. lol n i love you so much for that. thank you thank you. ur another year older and u get to buy alcho now. i'm so happy. when u come down here were gonna get FUCKED UP! i swear. lol were gonna get FUCKED UP!. lol i cant wait. i hope u will soon. =D anyways like i said earlier HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND I LOVE YOU.

SLEEPORED

today i didnt do SHIT. i went to school around 8:30AM. so i woke up around 7-730 ish. and i only slept like fucken 4 hrs. KRAZY. i was so tired. sociology was alrite i wasnt falling asleep. NOT ENGLISH EITHER! BUT ONCE I STEP MY FEET IN PSYCHOLOGY. i totally knocked out couple of time. FINALLY class was over i was so happy cause i have 2 hr break. went to lac lab to print stuff out than later on i went to the library to fucken sleep. hahaha. but people keep i.m me so i keep waking up. FINALLY i woke up n chat on my iphone. i saw kevin online n i decided to i.m him cause i thought he went to fucken AOS. acedemy of science. =D anyways yeah. but he didnt go but he was in the library. same floor too! haha but different part. lol. but yeah talk to him a little n went to bio class. DAMN. i was hella happy to go cause i get to see my twins. lol i didnt kO. lol. cause i was entertain the whole time. so its all good. after school amy drove me home and my brother;s frennz are all over watching movies connecting my lappy to the tv. so i didnt have my lappy so i decided to take a nappy. cause i was so tired. i slept til like FUCK 10 something. fucken krazy. lol. about 4 hours. =D anyways yeah it was pretty krazy. i dont think i could sleep tonight but its all good cause i dont have school 2m n friday i only have class til 12. =D yeah... =D i'm web camming with fucken eric kevin and amy. how lame huh. i kno. lol JK. but yeah i wonder what imma do 2m. =D netflix the whole day? YEAHHHH! lol. alrite gotta get ready to sleep some more soon. =D

HAPPY(BELATED) BIRTHDAY AMY

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!!!

HAHAH HOPE YOU'LL LIKE IT =D anywho. just came back from bowling. i didnt even bowl. but i was really tired already from all the human hula hoops. =D it was so fun!! seriously. anyways i keep hearing this beeping noise. n its driving me krazy cause iono where it came from. i thought it was my fucken laptop. n i have my headset on too. so when i took my headset on i cant hear it. n when i put it back on. it comes back. but i look at my volume thing and my speaker is off. so wtf. u kno. but iono. i'll see what happens. going back to what happened today or yesterday. lol.chilled at kevin;s house. n than bowling. thats it. sound boring huh but not really. it was pretty fun playing online games. DDR. lol pretty fun. seriously. cause when i'm there. its super fun =D hahaha.

anyways........

THIS IS FOR AMY ONLY!!!!!!!

happy birthday amy. i hope you had fun today or yesterday or whatever. =D i wish we couldve did more for u =D. anyways i hope everything goes right from todays on. forget what just had happen. like 30 min ago n move on. =D thankz for being such a great frenn to me. although sometimes u could be such a bitch, i styll love you very much. seriously i mean it. my lesbian girlfrenn. i hope sooner or later you will find a guy that would actually cherish you like how i cherish you =D i hope that when that days come. i would be the first of the first of the first to know =D hehe. so i hope n wish n want for you to be happy. also when i turn 21 we're gonna go to LV with xiao n george. =D i dont wanna wait for them. they take too damn long. LOL maybe when andrew too. during summer. they gonna sit in the hotel n we go back n hitting those damn bars. LOL (if u guys are reading this. than better stop reading u bitch ass!!!) amy i just want to tell you that when time fly by. were gonna be 34 35 36. i hope we will get marry and have kids. =D hahaha n when that day comes. i hope we will stylll be friends. =D pretty sure we will. lol. anyways i just wanna tell u when i marry eric. i want u to be right there for us. ( hahaha u wish ERIC) anyways hahahaha. but really when i get marry. u will be right next to me. =D cause i'll be to scared to get marry without u. =D alrite i'm dont talking about sum stupid shit that aint gonna come true in another 5-7 years. =D imma get marry soon guys!!! XD alrite bye amy =D

SAD NEWS.

SUCKS GUYS! I THOUGHT MY PARENTS GONNA GO SNOWBOARDING BUT U KNO WHAT. they aint going anymore. cause they said they dont have a rental car n stepdad has a doctor;s appt. sucks huh. i kno it ish. so no party at my house. LOL

today i didnt do shit. i was laying on my bed like always. but i was watching weed. fucken shit has hella sex scene. krazy! anyways its really good. finish season 1. gonna watch season two. =D anywho. went to 7-10 english class with amy. teacher is pretty kool. after class came home n webcam. time for beddie cause i have school tomorrow. =D NIGHT NIGHT!

WHAT A FUCKEN DAY!

HI GUYS! dude i didnt sleep til like 2:30 - 3 and woke up around 7. GREAT HUH!. 4 HRs of sleep. =[ anyways got up n change and left around 8:15. Went to school and wait until 1 cause i have a break from 1-2. *sigh* we to admin. office to get a full time paper for insurance. THE LINE WAS SO FUCKEN LONG!! took like 20 min to get to me. *sigh* took too long that i didnt even bother getting food. luckly i had seaweed in my purse cause if i didnt have that. DAMN my tummy would be calling out for food in class. lol.
BIO class. DAMN i met this 2 twin flip guys. THEY ARE SO ADORABLE!.hahaha. anyways i was happy getting to know them. =D something for me to go to class now =D okay after bio class met up with amy n she drove me home. how nice of her. HAHAHA. than i went online n wath GEM OF LIFE. i got hella tired after watching it so i decided to take a nap n that was around 7 already. =[ n guess what i woke up at 11 and now i;m on this thing. =[ cause i have nothin to do. n i cant get back to sleep. lol. *sigh* ohh yeah this weekend my family gonna head up snowboarding n imma be here celebrating amy;s birthday and do my hw before i get behind. if you kno what i mean. *sigh*.class been krazy for me this semester so i hope i could pull myself together. =D alrite guys imma leave. see me 2m =D i have class at night from 7 -10 =[

KEVIN TOLD ME TO.

HI GUYS! hahahaha. like i said as my title. KEVIN TOLD ME TO MAKE IT. =D i will update for u guy alrite. =D