I CANT FUCKEN STAND PEOPLE KEEP TELLING ME THEY AINT ASKING ME OUT BECAUSE I'M ALWAYS AT VANESSA'S HOUSE!!!!!!!!!! JUST BECAUSE I SAID NO FEW TIMES. DOESNT MEAN I DONT WANNA HANG OUT ALL THE TIME!. I'M SO TIRED OF PEOPLE GIVING ME THAT DUMB ASS EXCUSE OF NOT ASKING ME TO GO HANG OUT!
JUST FUCKEN TELL ME YOU FORGOT ABOUT ME OR DONT WANNA HANG OUT IS BETTER EXCUSE THAN SAYING I'M ALWAYS AT VANESSA'S HOUSE. SERIOUSLY. DONT SAY JUST BECAUSE I HAVE VANESSA AND SOPHIA NOW AND I DONT WANNA HANG OUT. ITS NOT EVEN THE FUCKEN REASON. STOP GIVING ME DUMB ASS REASON FOR FORGETTING ME! VANESSA ASK ME IF I WANNA HANG OUT. YOU GUYS DONT. SO TIRED OF THIS SHIT I SWEAR. IF YA CARED MUCH ABOUT HOW I B FEELING THAT START! CAUSE YOU NEVER DID! SERIOUSLY SO TIRED OF HEARING SHIT LIKE THAT. AND FYI YOU GUYS ALWAYS ASK ME THE LAST MIN! SO DONT EXPECT ME TO SHOW UP ALL THE TIME. I DO HAVE A FUCKEN LIFE SOMETIMES!
ALWAYS YES I DONT HAVE MUCH MONEY TO HANG OUT. IF THATS ANOTHER REASON U GUYS DONT ASK. AT LEAST ASK AND SEE IF I WANNA STILL GO. CAUSE ASKING IS A WAY OF APPRECIATING PEOPLE'S EXISTENT!
anyways this ALL CAME OUT because of a talk. BE CONSIDERATE OF HOW PEOPLE BE FEELING. CAUSE THEY DO FUCKEN FEEL LEFT OUT! ALSO DONT EXPECT PEOPLE TO DO SHIT FOR YOU IF U DONT DO THE SAME FOR THEM!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
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LIFE SUCKS. lol. i havent talk to wilson lately. hahaa. but i think its a good thing. i could forget about him n move on. i was talking to this one guy. i havent talk to him for a while but yeah. he played the piano for me. HES REALLY GOOD. lol hes really sweet but no i dont like him. hahaha. but i will get to know him. i hope he gets the job at APPLE. GOOD LUCK KEVIN! =D
IF ANY OF U GUYS NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. MY EARS IS ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU GUYS =D
hrmmm i have this song i really like. its call dream - cant wait to hate you. haha. if u want it just i.m me. =D
i have a lot of new songs that i like. its KRAZY. =D
i didnt do shit today. i sat home pretty much the whole day. maplestory. i made a new character and i'm level 19 almost 20 =D JUST IN ONE DAY. pretty quick. n i was chatting most of the time. =D OHH YEAH I GOT NEW NAIL POLISH AND I LIKE IT A LOT. GREEN AND PURPLE. XD
IF ANY OF U GUYS NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. MY EARS IS ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU GUYS =D
hrmmm i have this song i really like. its call dream - cant wait to hate you. haha. if u want it just i.m me. =D
i have a lot of new songs that i like. its KRAZY. =D
i didnt do shit today. i sat home pretty much the whole day. maplestory. i made a new character and i'm level 19 almost 20 =D JUST IN ONE DAY. pretty quick. n i was chatting most of the time. =D OHH YEAH I GOT NEW NAIL POLISH AND I LIKE IT A LOT. GREEN AND PURPLE. XD
Sunday, July 19, 2009
thoughts.
ohyesannyes (2:22:56 AM) : i dont want to control anyone. if that person cant be faithful to me. its no point of being with that person. i dont want to have a relationship that i need to keep a guy on check. i want them to have their freedom. cause i would want my own. trust is the main key to a relationship
i finally realize that I DONT WANT A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP. i dont think i'm ready to call someone my boyfriend. sometimes i really want to commit but i dont think there is a guy that is worth me wanting to commit a serious relationship with. i just have to just wait for the day to come. but as of right now i just want to date just one guy and see where it goes. if it is worth to move on than why not. but if its not, than i'm sorry. i think i always wanted this but because of wilson coming along giving me this special feelings i never gotten from any guys made me felt that i do like him. the attractiong fooled me to think i like him. thinking about it, i dont know much about him to determine if i like him. i'm positive i'm really attracted to him. really attracted to. he could satisfy what i need and want. i believe he has the ability to do that. i really wonder whats the next step with me and wilson. i wonder if he would ever see more than just a friend with me. i wonder if he would ever like me. so many question i cant find the answer. maybe time could tell me. tell me what my heart really want forsure.
i want to leave city. i want to art school and be a famous interior design. i want to design a store/ house/ mall/ everything. =D i really want to one day see myself doing what i do best. i wish i could move back to hong kong n find a job there. maybe i will find my guy in hong kong in the end. =D
as of right now my heart hurts. iono why but it does. i guess i just got to learn not to care. never let little things to hurt myself. cause i want to be happy. i want to smile. i want to be free. i want to have fun again.
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i finally realize that I DONT WANT A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP. i dont think i'm ready to call someone my boyfriend. sometimes i really want to commit but i dont think there is a guy that is worth me wanting to commit a serious relationship with. i just have to just wait for the day to come. but as of right now i just want to date just one guy and see where it goes. if it is worth to move on than why not. but if its not, than i'm sorry. i think i always wanted this but because of wilson coming along giving me this special feelings i never gotten from any guys made me felt that i do like him. the attractiong fooled me to think i like him. thinking about it, i dont know much about him to determine if i like him. i'm positive i'm really attracted to him. really attracted to. he could satisfy what i need and want. i believe he has the ability to do that. i really wonder whats the next step with me and wilson. i wonder if he would ever see more than just a friend with me. i wonder if he would ever like me. so many question i cant find the answer. maybe time could tell me. tell me what my heart really want forsure.
i want to leave city. i want to art school and be a famous interior design. i want to design a store/ house/ mall/ everything. =D i really want to one day see myself doing what i do best. i wish i could move back to hong kong n find a job there. maybe i will find my guy in hong kong in the end. =D
as of right now my heart hurts. iono why but it does. i guess i just got to learn not to care. never let little things to hurt myself. cause i want to be happy. i want to smile. i want to be free. i want to have fun again.
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
TODAY IS ......
today is.....
today was alrite overall i guess. i was home until dinner. ERNESTO came to bring me to dinner at san tung and head back to my house. we ended up going to cow cow for dessert and after we headed to safeway to get BEER =D head over to vanessa's house but mommy went krazy n kicked us out. if u want to put it like that. but it was pretty krazy. head home and now i'm tokboxing with AMY AND YONG and another box with MATT. hahaha. VENT talking to daddy yee. =D
I LOVE DADDY YEE. he could help me understand things better. aint lying he could. i guess cause hes more mature. =P DADDY SO CUTE. MAKING MOMMY FOOD. =D ANYWAYS i'm in a good mood for some weird reason. haha. whatever.
he didnt call me the whole day. i guess he have another event going on. imma just let things cool down in between me n him. cause i think his heart just not with me right now. i want him to miss me. i really do. i want him to want me n he get the same feelings i'm feeling. if he doesnt get it. FUCK IT. imma just let go. its really no point of waiting for a guy who doesnt feel the same way. rather let it go early than later. =\ now its time to just think about things.
today was alrite overall i guess. i was home until dinner. ERNESTO came to bring me to dinner at san tung and head back to my house. we ended up going to cow cow for dessert and after we headed to safeway to get BEER =D head over to vanessa's house but mommy went krazy n kicked us out. if u want to put it like that. but it was pretty krazy. head home and now i'm tokboxing with AMY AND YONG and another box with MATT. hahaha. VENT talking to daddy yee. =D
I LOVE DADDY YEE. he could help me understand things better. aint lying he could. i guess cause hes more mature. =P DADDY SO CUTE. MAKING MOMMY FOOD. =D ANYWAYS i'm in a good mood for some weird reason. haha. whatever.
he didnt call me the whole day. i guess he have another event going on. imma just let things cool down in between me n him. cause i think his heart just not with me right now. i want him to miss me. i really do. i want him to want me n he get the same feelings i'm feeling. if he doesnt get it. FUCK IT. imma just let go. its really no point of waiting for a guy who doesnt feel the same way. rather let it go early than later. =\ now its time to just think about things.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
JORDIN SPARKS - IT TAKES MORE
Tell me what happened this time
Made you come back again
I find out only see you when luck deserts you
If this is your idea of happiness
Then let's be clear
Those words of yours ain't working anymore
Cause I'm always giving
Here waiting while you're living
I need a new beginning
Oh, I'm not the girl I used to be with you
You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no, no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for
I know you're busy so if you gotta go
Then go but don't forget to leave my heart
I stayed around for you but
You're no where to be found now
Once again here you are
Cause I'm always giving
Here waiting while you're living
I need a new beginning
Oh, I'm not the girl I used to be with you
You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
Jordin Sparks It Takes More lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/jordin-sparks-it-takes-more-lyrics.html
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no-no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for
I've settled for less
When I stayed with you but no more
Cause you aint worth waiting for, ooh, uuuuh
You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
(Don't you know it takes much more)
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
(Waiting for you, no, no, no, no)
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no-no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for
(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes more
(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes much more
(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes much more
You're the only one not worth waiting for
You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no
Don't you know it takes much more
No-no, no more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain, no, oh
Don't you know it takes much more, oh
you say you couldn't handle me but who are u fooling? my life might have a little drama but its fine. i believe its me who cant handle your life. you're one busy guy and i cant stay at home waiting for your call to see if you want to see me. it hurts not getting the call that i want, i cant wait forever. =[ so i decided to let go before i fall too deep for you.
Made you come back again
I find out only see you when luck deserts you
If this is your idea of happiness
Then let's be clear
Those words of yours ain't working anymore
Cause I'm always giving
Here waiting while you're living
I need a new beginning
Oh, I'm not the girl I used to be with you
You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no, no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for
I know you're busy so if you gotta go
Then go but don't forget to leave my heart
I stayed around for you but
You're no where to be found now
Once again here you are
Cause I'm always giving
Here waiting while you're living
I need a new beginning
Oh, I'm not the girl I used to be with you
You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
Jordin Sparks It Takes More lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/jordin-sparks-it-takes-more-lyrics.html
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no-no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for
I've settled for less
When I stayed with you but no more
Cause you aint worth waiting for, ooh, uuuuh
You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
(Don't you know it takes much more)
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
(Waiting for you, no, no, no, no)
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no-no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for
(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes more
(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes much more
(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes much more
You're the only one not worth waiting for
You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no
Don't you know it takes much more
No-no, no more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain, no, oh
Don't you know it takes much more, oh
you say you couldn't handle me but who are u fooling? my life might have a little drama but its fine. i believe its me who cant handle your life. you're one busy guy and i cant stay at home waiting for your call to see if you want to see me. it hurts not getting the call that i want, i cant wait forever. =[ so i decided to let go before i fall too deep for you.
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